genre floods

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i dunno when or why i started updating this thing so often but since i'm on this ridiculous roll: earlier this year whilst in writing class we talked about genre floods. i dunno if i completely agree in the practice but you use a genre flood (movies that have been made prior to your own that you can watch as research and development to help inspire and problem solve the movie that you're about to make) but i practice it. back when i made them genre-period movies a couple years back i remember spending days watching nothing but noir movies or days watching chase movies from the 70s...it was a good time and i took a lot from those and figured out what ended up being the structure of those god awful movies i made. with my thesis around the bend i've been watching movies that have become more or less the kind of movies i'd like to make for the rest of my life. i dunno what it is that is so romantic (for lack of a better word) to me about broken, horrible, awful people. she used to sound super annoyed when i would tell her the stories i wanted to tell. she always encouraged me to stray away from making movies about (ugh) "love" (also: for lack of a better word) but i guess that's all i'm interested in talking about. relationships, friendships, families...they're all things that i don't particularly like in my own life but i guess i'll always have something to say about them and whenever i'm in the thick of my own melodrama (and i always am) i exploit those situations and emotions to tell stories that i guess are true to myself. i'm on a binge but because the story i'm about to tell is a general one in a lot of ways i'm finding it both difficult and easy to compile my genre flood. these movies aren't my all time favorites (in case the 2 of your are wondering my all time favorite top 5 movies are: elevator to the gallows, the bad sleep well, the graduate, fallen angels, breathless...in that order). but they are movies that make sense to me in my own private way, in a way that makes me comfortable, in a way that doesn't make me feel like i'm the only one who sees things the way i do (which is both comforting and terrifying). i guess these movies make me happy and fucked at the same time but in doing that they make me feel like i ought not to be afraid to say the things that i do and that, ultimately, i'm not alone. i fucking love all these movies

my current genre flood:
murmur of the heart
revolutionary road
the ice storm
twin falls idaho
little children
the graduate
dangerous lives of alter boys
masculin feminin

murmur of the heart was fucking bad ass! and revolutionary road in my own and very personal opinion is a fucking PERFECT all around movie. little children was amazing also, when i finally started to "get" it, it turned into the raddest fucking thing.

in other news i may be returning to los angeles in the fall for a while. i've been mulling over that decision for the last couple weeks. i know i don't wanna anchor down there and i certainly don't wanna be that guy that came back defeated by the big bad city. i really do love it here. the weather until now has been the fucking greatest weather ever and i love having the ability to walk nearly EVERYWHERE i need to be and the friends i've made here have made more sense to me than anyone has in a long time. there are a million reasons for me to return and said reasons range from silly to significant. i don't think i wanna be planted anywhere, i don't desperately feel the NEED for a "home" but maybe i will when i'm older and maybe after some time i'll have a clearer picture of where i want home to be once i've seen everything else. i'm nervous. i haven't decided completely just yet whether or not i am going back. we'll just have to see how these next few coming months go. i guess i'll have a better idear after that.

(i've been posting tons on my original blog as well...just in case anyone doesn't know: http://le-truand.livejournal.com